Missing out on love.

Havent blogged for days! Caaas' Ive been so busy with homework for Vietnam and caaas I had no internet for a couple days. But everythings been getting better lately.. Kinda. Ha! Ima miss my bestfriend so much :l Mhm, My day was pretty fast. Ehh theres nothing to talk about I needa go finish packing. Finish this later

N, Christina.

Hello, Forgot about blogging yesterday and the day before. Been caught up with my DS games. Sorry, Anywho I found out I'm not going to Vegaaaaaaaaas on the 20th. Instead I'm going to Vietnam on Fab12-March2. Yea I don't wanna miss out on Valentines, But doesn't matter caaas' I don't have a Valentines anyways. I also don't wanna miss out on Henry's birthday but I can't always have it my way now can I? But hey have fun for me if your @his birthday. Thats the plan I know for now. I hope my grade doesn't go down or anything. I mean I'm only missing school for 1week since were on break the other week. Mhm, So my day was once again fast&HOT! After school Went out for a ride and got starbucks and then home. Sat and did my homework for a bit and realized I was lasy so stopped. Hah, Bad habit :l. I died my hair to " Coffee " As its called witch LOOKED like back but purple in the sun.. And I died it and it came out to reddish brown.. Not my look. Hopefully ill get the hair color I want soon. Everythings going good, Kinda. Kinda not but its whatever(= Yea, Tomorrow I hope its gonna be a good day caaas' most of my classes are doing nada and watching movies caaaas' the sophomores have CHASEE. OH! And like, My cousin gave me her old phone witch I LOVE, Its Maroon and not much have it. Maroon Blackjack. Yeaup, someone saw it today and although its kinda scratched he offered 100$$ to buy it off of me. (= Ill think bout that though. But yea, Leaving soon so chill!

To much energy.

I still miss you so much :l. Today was a bad day. Needed someone to chill with and just talk, get my mind off some things. But everyone had there own thang'.. Its all good though. I've been feeling so ":l" lately. All I think about is about my past. How I wouldnt let go if I had another chance. I don't want you to be another enemy, But how can we reverse the chemistry? Not much understand.. You don't know how bad it is for me. I think I need you more and more when I don't have you at all. If I was given a chance right now to leave this place, I would be gone already. Everyday, Crying is like my daily thing. I dont know anyone. Fuck it, Fuck you. FUCK FUCK FUCK! BYE!

Why you gotta' be Dr Evil?

'You can never find the right person if you never let go of the wrong. But at the same time, the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want, and remember what you deserve.' -Ohgod. Thats hella' true. I need someone who would ride for me, not someone who ride for free. So hello there, My day was fast borring and gay. I chose to go to church today. And I was glad I did. I love church! Next week im looking forward to. Hopefully he would take the time out and go with me caaas' he needs god in his life! I wanna go out tomorrow, But everyones bussy =( Aww. I hate the feeling I have right now. That feeling when you hear your phone ring and you just hope while flipping ya' phone over that its him. But when you flip it over its someone else :l. Thats my feeling right now. But yea, I learned a lot @Church. No one is alone. I also realized how much I learned over the past half year at school. Although i really hate school I've become a better stronger person now. But everyone knows I can't wait till next year. Mhm, Well tired and bout to get off. Bye.

I gotta' do it.

I really miss you.

Running out of title's.

January 29th. Hello, My day was unexpected. Nothing new and all though. I walked home from school today witch took me an hour. Good workout though. So like I was kinda outta' uniform today thinking " Oh its okay, If anything they'll just make me take it off and get it after school " But then.. Today was not my luck. In first period one of the administrator said " IF you are caught out of uniform from now on.. They will take it and you will not be able to get it back unless you go to saturday school. " Oh god. Why today? Haha. Tomorrow is Friday. I have plans tomorrow/ but kinda stuck on what to do. I mean i know what i SHOULD do but i dont know what I WANT to do :l, But yea theres the normal church/youth group &or movies @Greatmall with the main girls. Most likely church though. &Then nothing to do on Saturday. I was invited to a triple date with Ashley&Henry and Anh&Eric. But I have no one to go with =( Its okay. Well ill finish this up later, tonight.

No comment.

' If that boy don't love you by now. Then he will never ever never ever. Girl you better listen ' Best believe it. Hello, I have a tummy ache :l. Today was a happy day, Although it was a normal day.. It seemed like everyone was in a better mood. &yea, I hate hate hate how I always do that " what could have, Would have if.. " Thing. I was thinking about it all day long. Stuck in my mind like a rewind thang. I can't let go of the past, Always holding on to it like a dumba$$. Its all good though right? Its a new year. I can't keep doing this to myself. I have to make it a good year myself, Not gonna be sitting around waiting for it to happen when nothings being done. But yea, Valentines :l It brings back memories too. But yea, This year I have no Valentines.. Oh geeez. Blah, At the moment, watching CSI and listening to music. Not a good oh mix. I hate running in PE now. Although my times are good seems like since I dont run daily, It hurts oh so much :l Hrm I wonder if I have plans this week end.. Friday Most likely church.. But the girls are gonna go movies. Ha, &Then Saturday No plans and so is Sunday. And after that 2 weeks till my mother and her boyfriend leaves to Vietnam, While I'll be here. Party Party? NO(= Jk<3

I hate this part, Yo,

Hola, How was your day today? Mines?: Took me awhile to get outta bed today, Caaas' it was so warm. Got up got ready normal thaaaang'. Math blah blah blah. Lets fast forward-- School was alright. After school was same also went to bestfriends house like always. I thought I lost my phone but really it was only on the side of the cars door. Fucken Jimmy heard it fall and didnt tell me :l, Boys! Vietnamese New Years- I got more money then last year. I hated the fact I had to TRY to be happy when really, It was just a normal day. Oh well, I hung out with Anh baby <3 Anywhom, I CAAAAAAANT WAIT TO GO TO SADIES WITH ANH+ASHLEY&MICHELLE<3 Mhm, Today my tummy felt weird. I ate hella but yet it feels like I havent ate for days. Oh well theres really nothing to talk about anymore. So just myspace it. ' www.myspace.com/damnchristinaaaa ' Yeaup.

Let it slide.

" Caaaaaaas I aint got no man " - Anhbaaaby. Ha, Yesterday was hella hella fun. Michelle's birthday thaaang' was great. I love my mains. Damn last night is gonna be unforgettable. Tag + Messing with Michelle was fun! &Today was good to. Oh gee, My parents are leaving in 2 weeks to Vietnam. Party party my house? SIKE. OH& Then sadie's coming up and ' I aint got no man ' kill me. Lala I have nothing to say. Kaybye.

What to do, When I miss you guys much..

Oh my my my, I was in class today and then memories hit me like a rushing wind. I know I might just be a lido over my head. So like 3/4 months ago, I met a group of friends that I havent ever met before. They were great influence to me. Whenever I was around them, I always had a smile with me. We all had so much memories made at one spot most of the time. I met two of them @YB. And witch led me to the rest. It all started with a phone call. I needed a ride/ wanted to chill.. Then we ended @some strangers house. But after that, I Became a familiar face to all of them. We chilled many many times. Always late @night. Memories oh memories. On Halloween: Boys these days all they want to do is go scary places :l, We went to somewhere I THOUGHT was scary but to them it was just nothing, But hey that night they saw something! Ha. I also remember how we played Taboo and drank, HAHA! My most unforgettable time was when we sat in a circle in a backyard talking real convos. How we all trusted each other so much, Even though all our past was bad all of us understood each other. Basically that night was suppose to be a promise, How we would always stick as one. But guys, Can I ask you guys. What happened? Why are we all so apart now. We dont even talk, Its like were complete strangers to one another. Its been so long since I had that " Damn I have great friends " Kinda feeling. But hey guys, Someone once told me. " Dont wait for shit go get it and if you want something to be done right then do it yourself." Mhm, I'll try. But hey.. Nguyen, Nino, Bobby, Alex, Rocky, Van + Johnny& Silver. I miss you guys<3 One day, Just one day we WILL be right back in the same spot talking bout how we got past all of this.

Round3' and im out.

Update for today: Today was such an ugly and gloomy day. I hated it, Most deff hated P.E. I don't give a damn anymore if I'm alone. You want me to be independent, Damn right am I gonna do that. Its all good though, You have your lido " friends " durring school but outta school? Ha, Yea thats what I thought. Just looking @you makes me wanna kill someone! There are days where I wanna just say sorry and fuck it over, Start all over again but then right when I hear you talk, Trying to be all that and shit.. Makes me wanna hit something. And plus, what kinda friend is gonna go do the homie hopping shit to ya' girl? Mmm, My momma taught me better then to be uhm someone like you. HA! I'm being so mean right now, And if your reading this then oh my bad, Get off my damn blog please. Your not welcomed. Main girls = All the girls besides you, Everyone knows your real side now hunnnnaye. So stop playing your lido games. Caaas' everyone is thru and done with it. -----! Fudge, Sorry (=! I had to let it out some how, Caas I dont use violence. Anywhom, My day still sucked though im trying so hard to get outta' 4th period before i strangle someone. And the lady said shes gonna have to look everything up once again and then let me know. But chance's are very slim. Mhm, A lot of people undertstand where im coming from and all they have to say is to keep my head up, Learn from all the things other teach you and step ya game up. Right Cindy? Since she might be reading this blog also(=! <3 -- Dude, I never realized how big my bestfriends eyes were.. Haha love you! Oh, Im sorry Henry.. I wore your sweater and forgot to give it back >:l Please do not kill me<3 &then blah blah blah.. Went home showered and yea. Im right here right now. Ugh, best friend oi.. What much I do?! The dance rehearsal is sooooooo last minute, agreed?Boooooooooooooooooooooooys!? : Nada. Not now, I dont think ever(=! haha, Whomsoever just call or text. Bye<3


I am so happy with myself by the way, I've been blogging everyday now. haha

January 20'.

HAPPPPPPPY BIRTHHHDAAAAAAAAAAAY MICHELLLLLLE! <3 I love you, Hope Ill be able to see you this Friday.

Hello world. My Bestfriend Ashley said I had to much cussing on my blog and that I should stop. I think I should, Ha. So today went by pretty darn fast. Borring though. So as for now, I was looking through my blog spot and then I saw when I wrote " What a night, Last night. " Gosh, I felt something wet down my cheeks :'l. Its okay though, I really miss those couple nights that I would feel free caaas' im with you. People change SO fast, Its like fast forwarding wouldnt even catch up to how fast a person can change. I need people thats gonna stay in my life forever, not just today and tomorrow. Grr, Sadie's is coming up and I completely have no one to ask. I dont mind? Ha. So like I told Ashley, Ima go buy a calender and start a count down(= A count down for what? Till sophomore year! Ha, I want the new sidekick8'. SO SO SO bad. --- Im going off topic :l. But yea I have 3 more hours till TV time. Lately its all about my TV instead of myspace and stuff. But yea, Im done &Hungry!

I wrote bad words like 5 times, and then erased it (=